Why do you keep hunting me ?!
Why don’t you stay in the past ?!
Why don’t you let me move on ?!
Why are you so annoying ?! I am so tired trying to avoid you .
Distracting myself from you .
And unfortunately I still can’t succeed .
You keep popping up into my mind .
You keep bothering me .
And I keep asking myself what else can I do ?!
What can I do to stop you from coming to my head ?!
What am I not doing ?! I feel like I have tried everything .
I feel like I am so weak right now .
I feel so tired from trying .
I hope I can find a solution .
Maybe somebody can help me .
With an advice .
Or a small talk .
(The memory of my childhood sexual abuse) ..