I haven’t grief
I was trying all the time to be strong
I didn’t let go
I was holding hope and believing that things i have lost will come back
But they wont
I have lost a lot of time thinking wrongly
And now i should not waste more time
I wanted my parents to believe that i had a problem
But they refused
I played the role of the victim ..
I kept hurting myself more and more after every disappointment i got from my parents .. and even from some of my dear people ..
My wounds can now heal .. but i know that the scars in my body and soul will always be there .. to remind me of who i am and who i will become .. which is a new strong person .. who have been born from those wounds ..
Now i can allow myself to feel all the pain .. to feel all the battle i lost .. to feel the greif .. and then let go ..
I no longer want to play the role of the victim .. i am done with that .. i got enough of lessons from that .. and now i am learning to be a new person .. who will let go of the past .. but still remember it .. but in a different way .. in a way that can make me feel proud and glad that i have cross over all these things and still be alive ..
Now i should focus on my porpuse in this life .. i should grow from within .. and glow in the dark ..
I should be that future psychiatrist who is going to change people’s lives forever ..
I have learnet my lesson .. and now i shall begin a new chapter in my life ..
I think I need to be honest .. to be the authentic me ..
I think I reached that point where there is no more going down cuz i hit the bottom already ..
Cutting myself is becoming a habbit ..
But enough is enough ..
I suffered alot ..
And now it is time to take care of myself ..
I think i have put my hand on the core of my wounds .. now I just have to clean it .. close it .. and move on ..
That is what should be done ..