Despite the fullness and the heaviness I feel because of the huge amount of feelings within me .. I still feel empty from within .. I still feel fragile and so weak..
It is a very awkward thing .. to feel two opposite things at the same time..
I am tired of writing down my feelings and hoping that this may make me feel a little bit better .. because it doesn’t ..
I am tired of wearing my smiley mask all the time and pretending to be fine and perfect ..
I am tired of all of that but I still have to do it .. and it is killing me .. to know that I have no other choice ..
I hate the ups and downs that are happening to me .. they are driving me crazy .. one day I am okay .. the next I am crying for no reason .. it’s insane ..